The Prep Part-1

White lace, purple dandelions, green archway, coral candle-stands, rusty and vintage theme, everything looked just out of a fairy-tale movie. It was so mesmerizing for the first look that I couldn't just stop myself from pinching once to make sure it was not a dream. I loved it. Why wouldn't I. It was the preparations for my wedding day.
How was I even ready for a sudden change of events in my life? Well I was just trying to figure it out myself by taking a flashback at all the events that prompted me to take a leap in my life. I was naive at first on how to manage all the small things that pile up into a cluster of breathtaking functions. I thought I would be alone in preparing for my dream wedding but then I was prohibited to overthink. My going to be equal-half was always there nodding a yes at all my choices. Yes, an equal-half is what I address him as. He gives me the privilege to take equal righteous decisions of our life together. Most of the times I am the one selecting from minute to major details of our available choices. When I am tired then he just cheers me up and selects just the same as what would I have liked. We are almost similar in our selections. And that is really important in the long run, trust me,

When death falls for life...

'What will happen if you are kissed with death' is not an everyday thought. Some of us are too scared maybe to confront the ultimate truth of life. But what if death is the most beautiful thing to experience. Maybe death is the true love of life. Death never betrays life. It lets life to choose the path it wants to lead. Life is too selfish sometimes that it forgets about its companion 'death'. But death may come late but it will definitely come. Death is magnificently loyal and understands the concept of relations. Life may not bring you close to people around you but death does. When we die even our far away relatives or even our acquaintances give a minute thought for us. Death brings those loving parting tears in the welled up eyes of our loved ones. Life just brings complexities and complications and no one gives a damn about our existence. Death brings us closer to our real soul. We can see the flashback of all our good times and cherish each valuable moment spent in this a bit materialistic world. Death is innocent. It just comes to allow us to meet us 'the real us'. We only start wishing to live more when we are near to our death. Death makes us understand the value of living. Death is underestimated and is thought to be the evil. But the truth is : "Death is beautiful and the only truth of our existence. "

MEMORIES..

I still remember the day when you were tying the tags

On our first flight to Vizag on my laptop and hand-bags

I was so confused still eating your head

Wipro, Infy or Cogni where should I go and I was driving you mad

But you were now so used to my tantrums and mood swings

Finally you said that is our flight and get your things

I wanted the window seat so we took turns

But during my time the Sun was high and gave me burns

You were laughing at my luck and I was angry at you

And then came the red hot air hostess and I started teasing you

I don’t understand how come you scanned her in one look

You didn’t even raised your eyelids and caught her in hook

Vizag was hot when we landed and you were pushing me all the way

To hurry up but how could I when my bag was still not on the baggage convey

It was so difficult to read the signboards and hoardings all written in Telugu

But somehow we reached our destination, tired and exhausted, nothing new

You were loving the new place and cherishing the new city

And I was hating the food and the heat and you had no pity

You helped me out in looking for a PG to stay and that was a relief to my day-1 mission

But you just kept boasting that what she could have done without your supervision

I was angry that how come you think so high of yourself as I am dependent

Well you were wrong about the girl who was always self-reliant and independent

All the girls came with their respective families to settle down

I was on my own from the start and there was no glimpse of frown

You were good to me but sometimes so confusing

I could never understand what made you fight with me at times without reasoning

We were good old friends since college time and knew for sure rather

We couldn’t listen to each other but had faced tough times together

I still remember climbing the rocks on the beach with all you friends

In my slippers it was so tough with my fractured toe to balance

As I was struggling to keep my foot on the next rock

I saw two hands stretching out to hold and I was not at all in shock

Without a second thought I chose to hold yours as I was affirmative

You won’t let go and will hold with no wrong intentions calculative

We struggled to make me reach to the farthest stone to sit upon

With the waves touching our feet I could feel the cold white foam

I clicked so many pictures but you were so lost

I wondered what kept you so enchanted in your distant thoughts

And then the night fell and we all got ready to leave

We enjoyed our corn and snacks in the food street

You came and stood at my face and I was shocked and stunned

You just pulled up the collar of my top to make it in right position

It was maybe a small deed for you but I was so happy to the heart core

You actually paid attention to make me look decent on the whole

I enjoyed our first outing and the trips escalated

Gradually you made me fall in love with the city I once hated

My birthday and the holi party at the beach was so rocking

All the beaches and how can we forget the go-karting

The Kulfi Faluda shake and the chilly Manchurian was yum

That spicy Chinese soup stop made me teary eyed and glum

The chilled lemon soda was a relief in the heat

I was so much astonished to see the soda machine spree

You considered me as a child full of all tantrums and stubbornness

But still you were bound to manage with your best friend, no less

The CMR Central had become our second home and how much you hated window shopping

I was running for pizza and cold drinks always and you were always complaining

Looking for Anu’s dress in the kid’s section was a tough task I know

But you were all so emotional looking at those small accessories and clothes

You really surprise me sometimes with your changes in mood

At one time you act strict and the other you are all cute

All those times in Vizag were so enchanting that it feels like a dream

I remember how much I cried when we were about to leave

That place has so many cherish-able memories I can’t even express

The city which gave me my best friend is no less

Vizag you will always have a special place in my heart forever

You changed me and I will love you vizag forever and ever…

In this life

When I look towards you a thought suddenly appears,

One day I’ll wait until the sky is clear,

Just as it was the day when we first met,

You will quietly return to my side to get

to see you in my heart the you in my soul.

As days go by, my feelings get stronger,

To be in your arms, I can’t wait any longer,

Look into my eyes and you will see it’s true,

Day and night my thoughts are for you…

Let the world stop turning, let the sun stop burning,

Let them tell me love’s not worth going through,

If it all falls apart, I’ll know deep in my heart,

The only dream that mattered had come true,

In this life I loved you.

And it just happened like that

There was this guy sitting beside

When I was busy registering sports teams,

Barely I could talk or look at his side

Nevertheless he was interested as it seems.

I could hardly remember the first interaction

When he claimed to have told me where he was from,

How could I remember him when

I was least interested to build new acquaintances’ norm.

Days passed by and there was never a glance of him

Habituated with my late night surfing online,

My facebook messenger pinged with blue beam

There he was taunting me with ed-board work, fine.

And soon the chain of conversation built up

There were little chats and little emoticons,

And soon started the ritual naming and teasing on and on.

The plank of friendship was sailing smoothly

So as it seemed everything was working perfectly.

Days went by and then he was injured

I met him on my way back and couldn’t understand a word

After telling him to take care I passed by

Soon in 5 minutes I was uneasy and bid my other girl goodbye

I turned back and rushed to see him again

There he was inside and all I had to do was wait

All his friends were waiting outside and soon I felt as an unrequired soul

So I bid farewell to them and left with no role.

All I could do was wait to ask him again

Though I was feeling bad for not meeting up in person main

That was the least I could do though wasn’t necessary

But that was my courtesy part shouting from inside in worry.

Cursing me why I left.

But he was casual when he told afterwards

There was minor injury and no stitches or worse

I was relieved to hear his words

And then all I could do was pray for him to recover

Afterall it was my call in the morning which woke him up

Maybe I am not so lucky for him to be kept around

So I made up my mind to maintain a distance and not to be found

And I am sorry to him for my superstitious mind.

Then came the thundering placement time

We all were busy and had no news of one another

And there he was sobbing and I could only call like his father

All I had were consoling words but there was so much I needed to do

Hands were tied and had no option but had to wait to face him again thereto

There he was with withered face

All tensed and gloomy with the last chance in his hand to trace

I tried my best to cheer him up and help him in my best possible way

There he was all panicky on the drive day

and I was sitting

Next to him making fun of the day

There he was giving his interview and I was rubbing my hands

Nervously waiting outside watching his back,

I would have recalled all my guarding gods to just let him crack

this positively and I was boosting him up

when I was the one shivering and needed to hold up

Hearing his name for the HR was the greatest accomplishment

For me that day.

His name was the one I searched before mine in the list

And there it was and it was a big relief in the gist

But he forgot to call me up and inform so instead I did

And there his voice thanked me amid

Anyways I let it go and reached him

People were congratulating me and then in the end he remembered me

Shook his hand and thanked him

There I thought was the end to my efforts

My biggest task was done

And then my bestie was proud of what we had done.

But this was not the end.

As they say friendship never dies

So how could this one deprive

From all the taunts and fun and love and spark

All the memories made each day to remark

The beauty and essence of what they call

Full package all in one and one for all.

Less of talks and more of conversations

We took interest no matter topic-less nonsense

Every statement had a conclusion and less of assumptions

Cuz we both believed in to ask if we don’t know notions

To argue if we don’t agree, to say it if we don’t like it

But never to judge silently, herewith.

Knowing the light and the dark inside of each other

All we could sum up was there is nothing wrong to tolerate one another..(hehe)

We both had our sides of stories

But nevertheless none of us was sorry

All we had was the past to be suppressed in history

There was nothing as such between us to be kept as mystery

Trust is the rightful foundation we shared

No matter how much we pulled legs but at the end we cared

Teases and taunts were part and parcel of our bond

Naming came in free with labra, gorilla, chipkali, aurat as we called (haha)

Calling Karan’s mom as my in law and his anamika as his future wife

420 was the fictitious number he gave me in strife

5’5” tall, extra cute with high IQ is his type

Still to be found on facebook twitter Whatsapp and skype

He is an item as priceless as an empty box

He calls me the lid all worthless, I so wanna hit him with rocks (hehe)

Still we fit in somehow and go in together

Dabba is useless without its dhakkan

He is used to my idiotic talks and I am to his immortal notion

He still finds it hard to acknowledge me in front of his friends

As their teases about us together find no end

All he could do was make them understand finally

But what he needs is himself to take it easy and casually

Somewhere I feel guilty for making him victimized to all this

He didn’t deserve and my intentions were never as such

I will be sorry to him and grateful for his comprehension about the situation well-fully much

I know he will continue ignoring me in front of them

It is completely his choice as it is his life his decision and his realm

How can I not mention the happening CLAP

The party was awesome and we grooved to all the tunes and rap

He was still looking for his 5’5” and asked me to search out for his girl

There were so many but I couldn’t measure them up without heels in swirl

His gaze was looking for her in the crowd

And I was busy to figure out

Was it for fun or was he serious

How can someone get hitched in a rush

Anyways I was hoping he would get his date

As it has been too long and late

He needs to move on with a girl good enough for him

I hope he gets much better than he thinks

He deserves a life free from complications

I am still perplexed about the problem he mentioned

Before the party he told me he will foretell

But later he denied to say and kept me asking him and that didn’t go well (ab to bta de )

He is a kid from his heart and wise from the brain

His only weakness is his trust-rush with no gain

This mean external crowd is eager to take advantage

An open book person is easy to fall in their trap

And no one comes to hold up when life is full of crap

Laughter is easy to celebrate and share

But the real faces are to be remembered only in despair

He is a completely different person on a positive note

I wish him good luck and want him to have all good things he deserves

He is a sweet innocent creature always ready to serve

With his kind charm and melodious voice

Proud to earn his friendship, I always make awesome choice ;)

He is an awesome brother, a more awesome friend and a great caring son,

We will stay beside each other in the long run

I wish him all success and happiness in his life

I will always preserve him in my memories alive.