not that anymore

I think the real reason why it's so hard to let go, why it takes so long, is because you still have hope. And when you have loved somebody unconditionally for so long, it doesn't really end. No matter how many times you tell yourself that it's really over, for you, in your heart, it isn't.

But the saddest truth is, no matter how much you love them, no matter how hard you try, you can never make the wrong person the right person for you.

So you have to let them go.

And with time, the ache begins to dull, and you should never feel ashamed for how you loved them.

I used to be the person that no matter how bad you hurt me, I'd always still be there for you, but I realised this had to stop because that's how you allow people to take advantage of you and allow them to continuously step over you. I am not that person anymore.

I have given so much of myself to people, and they'll make me genuinely feel that they would do the same. Except they don't. They never do. Out of every person that I have ever invested myself into, I am constantly the one who cares a little more, and it hurts.

I understood myself only after I destroyed myself. And only in the process of fixing myself, did I know who I really was.